I want to warn, that this blog will be very open and honest. At times there will be information that is very graphic and not pleasant, but its real and its my life. Its what I live with on a day to day basis. There are ups and downs but more downs then ups.
Cauda Equina Syndrome is an invisble thing most times, and most people will look at you and think you are normal, they dont see the paralysis inside you, how your bodily functions are gone, how the core of you is gone, and how much you cannot feel. I am going to be as forthcoming as I can so you can understand.
You may walk by me and I look normal to you. I am not. My body is not normal, therefore neither is my mind. Its a hard balance trying to keep them both working properly just so you can survive. It has taken me along time to start this blog, because of the humiliation, the pain, and the loss I have had to come to grips with.
In the following posts I will get more into what has happened to me, and why it is so hard to live with, but for now I took the big step in starting this blog, and hopefully a start in the healing of my mind, since I have no control over healing within my body, but that is likely to never happen. You see I have been permanently changed forever, with the cut of a scalpel.
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